so it’s been, what, 2 months since my abortion? roughly?
i still think about it almost every day- wondering what my baby would have been like, what kind of mom i would have been. there is a lot of relief- knowing that i can be free to be the idiotic teenage girl i am without much regard to consequences.
i am okay with my decision now. i’m not happy about it, but i no longer cry on a daily basis. i know it was for the best, and now i just have to live my life in a way that would honor the child i didn’t have. i didn’t have an abortion so i could go party my pain away, i had an abortion so that i could have a college degree and a real future.
it’s hard to deal with something like this on your own, but the sad truth is that no one really knows how to talk to me about it. they don’t understand, and that’s okay.
what i can’t forgive, however, is the stupid idiots that walk around on campus with shirts that say “i <3 babies” and “pro-life” on the back.
what- you think i hate babies or something? FUCK YOU. i love babies, i just wasn’t ready to have my own. trivializing something like abortion and writing me off as a fucking baby-killer is horrible. they should be ashamed of themselves.
