what it’s like to kill your baby
so it’s been about two weeks since i had my abortion. it was pretty simple actually. i got to the clinic with my sister, they made me fill out a ton of paperwork. i met with a nurse to get an ultrasound, turns out i was 4 weeks and 1 day pregnant. i saw my little speck of a baby. it was smaller than a fingernail. waited around. waited some more. saw another doctor to determine my blood type by pricking my finger. cried from getting finger pricked, confirmed i could never go through labor at this point in my life. waited more, read trashy tabloid magazines. met with counselor, told her yes this was my decision and my decision only. waited. took first pill, went home. took a ton of pain killers and took the other pill the next day. was in a coma-like state for 3 days and didn’t feel any pain whatsoever. considered asking for a refill of the amazing painkillers. and i’ve been bleeding ever since. it’s like having a really, really long period.
the end.
